What hurts

(379)  Prathama jiivane tumi aso niko

In my early life, You did not appear;
I feel no anguish over that.
I did not seek... with this remorse,
My distressed mind weeps constantly.

You were so close, and yet I did not call;
My days and nights have passed in vain.
At this late stage, that same history–
The more I recollect, the more I feel the pain.

All who have come stay for a fixed duration
To do some work upon this earth.
But time passes idly, the chance gets wasted;
And blaming God is ineffectual.

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