I am confused

(2079)  Tomari tare jiivana bhare

All my life, for the sake of You only
I have roamed about; don't You know it?
Shaking off drowsiness, through my tears
I've kept calling; can't You hear it?

Yourself I have sought in an arbor's vista;
Yourself I have looked for in a desert's mirage.
For You I have searched at grandeur of tiirtha;
Don't You see, don't You understand it?

In You I've recognized just one quality:
You can hear, yet You stay unhearing;
You can know, yet You stay unknowing.
Please do explain to me this deceit, what it is!

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