Unimaginable grace

(3144)  Kakhano tumi harao na prabhu

Lord, never missing do You go;
By my own defect Yourself I don't see.
With black cloth eyes having covered,
I invite the gloom of stupidity.

The light You ignite, with clouds I blanket;
Calling through rifts in the mist You persist.
I deposit lampblack amid that luster;
With that same cosmetic, unseen You adorn me.

The flowers You attire, like insect I trim;
You are a line gilded, I am death's matchstick.
On Your golden shore I am the sandy grit;
With that soil a green earth You go on making.

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There is no forgetting Him

(3143)  Chapiye kajal ankhite chilo jal

On kohl-stamped eyes there had been water;
The why I do not comprehend... to state I cannot.
Rainclouds having come down, making effusive,
He went away... unto where, I know not.

I had thought that I won't shed a stream from eyes;
One Who retires afar, oh, is He mine?
In solitude of the mind, with my moody songs,
I see He's kept staying; longing floods on.

Making vain or conceited, naught is there;
Always I move about, around Him circling.
Every instant, thrilling me with splendor,
In thought He grins; that can't be forgot.

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Eyes on the prize

(3142)  Chalachala cokhe ami

I with teary eyes,
Yourself had I been asking:
"The path You brought to light,
Where its end is, kindly reveal."

"The road has gone straight ahead.
Leaving behind the darkness,
A ray of dawn is getting coated;
Living with ambrosia is fulfilling.

"Unto Me a question you had set.
Forgetting the topic of start-and-end,
He Who rocks the cradle is ever resident;
To contemplating Him do cling."

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May I always love You

(3141)  Ganer mala tomar gale

A garland of songs upon Your neck
Worn did I afford, my Dearest Love.
Adjacent may it stay, there's honeyed scent
Ever-novel from my heart.

Whatever blooms had been in my garden,
With a sweet perfume and hues incomparable,
All of them had been eager,
To obtain You, hey the Peerless One.

All arrive with liila's strong attachments;
Yon they float, on only having come afresh.
They cry and laugh in rhythm of movement,
To a rainbow analogous.
You alone transcend tempus;
Unto You, many salutations.

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On final investigation

(3140)  Atanu rage anurage

With immense love and fondness,
Who came floating upon floral pollen?
He speaks not a word, only remains watching
An incipient bud of a small rose garden.

Today with passion psyche is replete;
The river of emotion is lost upstream.
Only He realizes at whose enticement
Gladly He arrived in this environment.

And so today I cannot know
Why in a hundred forms just one do I behold.
Having been a hundredfold, only one history
In many modes, why it smiles on firmament.

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Now I think of only You

(3139)  Jadi na asibe tabe kena

When You won't arrive, then what's the reason
You had held dear?
If You will not smile on coming near,
Why had You peered?

Why in both good and bad times calls Your pipe of reed;
Spellbound it does make me!
Through a hole in the clouds I spy a ray of glee;
This divine game, where did You study?

In the house mind does not stay, outdoors it races;
Also dwelling outside, in bud of mind I flower.
Yet smeared with pollen's honey, in poverty I flounder;
What You wished, You did not speak.

On the wind soars my topknot, flying free;
Those who come with hope nearby, I don't see.
I don't ponder what they say, who smiles or weeps;
You made me ignore everything.

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Krsna, my love

(3138)  Na janiya bhalo besechi

Unknowingly, I've held dear;
Having loved I see that knowing doesn't thrive.
Sweet smile's charming pipe of reed,
Behind curtain that Dark Prince^[1] abides.

From friendship, the Jamuna, upstream it hies;
Forgetting it, to Dvaraka Shyama retires.
Nanda and Jashoda gave tender ambrosia,
But even toward them He does not cast His eyes.

The milkmaids gave their heart's sweetness,
But the Self-lit Moon, He abandoned also them.
The doe just watching, she was startled;
Crying and crying, the time goes by.

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The mystery of existence

(3137)  Saritar dhara bahe jay

A river-stream goes on flowing;
Whereto does it go, unto where it proceeds?
Having raised a clatter of ripples,
It gets lost in the bosom of which sea?

Out of which glacier had it been emitted?
From the body of which mountain had it emanated?
With how many sub-currents had it mingled?
Everything has remained shrouded in mystery.

It made room for so many villages;
On its path there had been a gay din and bustle.
Funerary pyres of many crematoriums it had ignited,
Spreading ashes on this earth extensively.

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You are the Noumenon

(3136)  Tomari asari ashe

In hope of only Your advent,
Nights aplenty have elapsed sleepless,
Adrift, many a day has left
Like floral pollen moment after moment.

You alone are the source of all qualities,
Beginningless and endless interminably.
Start and finish, both the two belong to me;
I am frenzied by hue and attachment.

In new form with new effulgence,
Every instant You rise effervescent.
In Your stream, by just Your sorcery,
I dance to melody and music trend.

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No ordinary path

(3135)  Jakhan keu cahe nai

When nobody spies,
You'd been watching over me.
Nearby none arrive,
But You had been holding dear.

From pupils of just Your eyes
Nectar the Goddess Vasudhara mines.
Heaven's celestial luster
You had been conferring lavishly.

In effulgence You grin;
Upon darkness You alone swim.
The light on the other side of my stupidity
You enlivened with music mode and melody.

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Maybe, my dear

(3134)  Mrganayana more balo na

Doe-eyed one, to Me won't you say
For whose sake night and day so much you weep,
Telling He will come, oh Who has departed,
Thenceforth has forgot; Who is He, lacking empathy?

Upon the sky fly your curling tresses;
Shiva^[1] of mind is inside, with clouds' rain-shower.
Nonetheless He did not look, fathomed not the pain.
He went on staying distant; how is He severe?

You are gazing listlessly at the remote heavens;
Your mind goes on floating with extended breaths.
Though He'll not come, will not understand Your pain,
His heart, won't it melt... that One ever a mystery?

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Petty me

(3133)  Amake tumi bholoniko

You did not forget me;
Yourself have I ignored.
Neath Your shelter having dwelt,
I've not looked in Your direction.

In my own mind, jungle dense,
I've not gone in search of sweetness.
Hurt by stones, on being wounded,
Crying, Thee I've summoned.

In summer's heat like stroke of death,
Under reproach with mind distressed,
To console on mourning intense,
I have got You proximate.

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In service to Thee

(3132)  Amar ami bhese geche

Gone afloat has my sense of 'I',
Like a blossom upon current's water.
Keeping it close by did not thrive
Under endless bondage of matter.

In diverse ways both day and night,
Knowledge had I desired
On a thought-stream's dearth entire,
The dyes applied, many hundreds.

That same golden-caged 'I'-sense,
When it You did request,
You abducted and then kissing head
Said: "Color you did vanquish."

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He is known by His song

(3131)  Ganeri majhare peyechi tomare

I have got You amid only song;
You rock a cradle of the melody.
You are the aggregate of all cognition;
In streams myriad You move dancing.

At thick of day You're the eyes unsleepy;
You have been strewn like affection's honey.
By rhythm, form, and color, existence is impassioned;
Those born or transcendent are overflowing.

On the outside of You there is nothing more;
The universe is dancing to only Your thought.
Around Your lotus feet, with a sweetness soft,
You raise a sound that's presently severe.

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Due to Your love

(3130)  Tumi andhar nishay dhruvatara

On the dark night You're my Star of North;
From path You don't let me get lost.
In bamboo grove I am nonplussed,
Oh the woodland doe's Cherished One.

Startled by a forest rustle, timorous,
Ever afraid, engaged in thought,
Yet You, seeing me, giving heart's affection,
Watching the goings-on, You beckon.

Like the musk deer^[1] I rush about,
Fear of own darkness being roused.
I don't see a ray of light has awakened, stretching out;
On mind's depths it rises in a hundred fashions.

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Heaven is the limit

(3129)  Ami tai bhevechi tai bhevechi

I've mused on that alone, only that have I dreamt,
What the mind cannot consider.
I've wished to receive the moon in a dark recess,
A waterfall amid the desert.

What I've fantasized, I have gotten in excess;
Assemblage of a hundred moons I have seen in darkness.
A sweet fount in crater's mouth I have witnessed,
That which is a kindness unearned.

Myself, I've gone missing on obtaining happiness;
I have been inundated by a thought-current.
From thinking and reflection, That I have experienced,
What through scripture can't be learned.

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Life's course

(3128)  Maner e madhuvane

At this pleasure garden of psyche,
You infused songs aplenty.
On the resonance of them only,
I have gone a-floating.

In the world there is no equivalent;
Searching cogitation I don't detect.
Always You have been like my essence;
Into recollection You come smiling.

Oh the One fit for cosmic welcome,
Worthy of the mind's devotion,
Please convey Your great passion
Through the rapt attention filling me.

From love, calling I've remained;
Honey-coating, I have stayed.
There is nothing else to welfare,
Hello Master, in Your proximity.

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One day we must be free

(3127)  Akashe diipake e karttike

In this month of Karttik with its lamp on sky,
The light You did ignite,
Of it there's no likeness, no likeness.^[1]
To make compass known on the dark night,
This is a speck of Your kindness.

If ever I'm forgetting You,
Lord, listlessly to move and move,
Then this Your lamp, love's fragment,
"The goal," it tells, "don't forget."

If the unit life go on forgetting,
Through speck of Your unsought mercy,
Loud and fiercely out it cries:
"Don't deceive yourself."

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Lord, I am weary

(3126)  Tumi dure theko na

Oh You, remote please don't dwell;
A wreath I thread, altar I decorate.
A song I go on practicing for Your sake;
Kindly don't forget.

in search of You, ever roving
Amid forest, hill, and sea...
By all small and large deeds;
From fatigue, I don't lie abed.

Many folk, in diverse ways they speak;
I go on tolerating with a smile's veneer
Through the name and strength of Thee–
That do You not comprehend?

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Pretense and reality

(3125)  Tandra anka chilo ankhipate

Apathy had been etched on eyelids;
In the mind was a fervent longing.
No other person had been with,
Who had grasped this story.

Psychic speech, only You fathom it;
Purposely, why disguise as stupid?
In- and outside You dwell, just useless it is
If sense of affection did not exist.

By hearing, thinking, and unbroken reverie,
You are my Polaris in meditation and in knowing.
Reposing in bed or dreaming, asleep or awaking,
This fact, who let it be buried?

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For better or worse

(3124)  Ganer raja tumi prane ele

Into life You came, oh King of Song;
Sound You roused amid heart's core.
With rhythm and melody filled is the cosmos;
With such jingle, mind You made absorbed.

From time out of mind a song You do sing;
In any state or condition You don't cease.
To an endless Infinite You go on floating;
You don't say, "What you received, let it be enough."

I will realize You, having heard the song,
In the mental cradle, by Yourself swung.
All things having ignored, but with You along,
I'll stay the course day and night, good or inauspicious.

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The most elusive game

(3123)  Tomar pathe kabe hate

On Your path from what ancient time,
Day and night do I proceed,
It's not known, I'm not knowing.
I have gone on moving, gone on pensive,
Merely Your anxiety only.

I've gone searching for the path's pointed spire;
I've kept staring at an arbor of a remote site.
I looked not inside own mind,
Only having disregarded psyche.

A voice I hear floating asudden:
"You're the mind's Stone of Philosophers.
The jewel-mine of a dark cavern,
Only ego granted not its viewing."

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Modest is my desire

(3122)  Gane gane esechile

You'd arrived with songs aplenty,
Touching heart You did concede.
Myself after fascinating,
Making Yours, off You carried.

Paradisal pleasure I don't wish for;
Wealth of Nirvana, that too I think burdensome.
Unto Earth's dusty bed-sheet,
For just those had You brought me?

Heaven's pastime of an idle one,
Its hint, please don't give, Lord.
In service to everybody at Your discretion,
Doing work, let me go on moving.

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Boundless love and endless might

(3121)  Nandita tumi sab mane prane prabhu

In every mind and heart, Lord, applauded are You;
Throughout the whole universe You are revered...
In the embroidered garden, in the golden niche of psyche,
Girdled by mountains with the trees resounding.

Per Your will, what You wish, that You go on doing;
Upon desire, shape You give instantly and smilingly...
In both crest and trough is a great collection of novelty,
Its thinking abrim with a heady property.

Only by cherishing, attaining You succeeds;
Those made to see all things, they come back weeping...
At depths of mind You remain, honey all-pervading You dab
On happiness and sadness, on everybody's memory.

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